Revas Rags 2 Roses: self discovery

Hi everybody!

As a blogger who loves to have followers and people to relate with,

sometimes I feel the need to 'tone down' who I really am.

Anybody else with me?

You start thinkin':

My Mother-in-law reads this.

Religious people read this, Political, Ethical,

'Easily Sometimes Offended' people read this....

So you begin to edit your way of not only communicating- But thinking.

You start scouring the other blogs to see how
or why they have become so mainstream/successful.
Do they pretend to be something they're not at the price of success?

"Boy are they 'trending".....

Then I think, are the trendy 'big-time bloggers real? (I know they exist), but are they REAL? Meanwhile, I am losing my creativity. I find myself buying shit that I don't really care for. On the hunt for the 'truth' of others, I am losing myself! MY VOICE. (and I can actually be really loud).

But alas, you go to the home-grown blogs who are REAL. Who actually create their outfits from imagination, not cash flow. Who are honest - Who have hundreds/thousands of supporters. Who don't give a shit whether or not 'scalloped short suits' are the it thing to
blog about this Spring. The life blood of the original blogger. The choice of those who need to be separated from the herd.

So which are you?

and most importantly,

Which am I???

So far, I have been a hybrid of trying to please everyone

while hinting of my true nature, which includes:

1. Cursing (a lot).

2. Smoking (a lot).

3. a Liberal fruit fly.

4. A blaring 'rock-and-roll' station wagon driving cat lady.

5. A Bohemian, a Wanderer, a Seeker, a Thinker.
A cheap skate.

A lover, A very political person who always gives people spare change.

A cluttered heap of red-hot crazy.

I bitch. I take meds. I would rather run over a human than an animal...

the list goes on and on....

So, I am beginning to avoid trendy magazines. I only look at the sites I love, Like Free People (pricey but great ideas:). I am finding more and more inspiring places to hang out. I am starting to dress myself again without a post in mind. And ya know what?

My creativity is gradually coming back. My inner Gypsy-Artist-Grunge-Fairy is slowly and beautifully returning...

And I like her :)